My first song...hopefully it wont be the last..

Though the sun shines
and brightens the day,
darkness still covers
still haunts me anyway,
Throw me in a crowded room
and let them shout and scream and sing,
there will be only silence
and no other it seems around me to cling,
Time fourtolds just a quarter
of a day have past,
though through lonelyness it
seems to be hours not too fast.

*Asleep or awake,
my mind still wonders,
what others doing,
or thinking or ponders,
what is this world offering,
where is this world coming to,
questions without answers,
i can never answer you.

The pleasures that are vivid
around us never cease to satisfy,
as to all the pain and suffering
that we all went by,
keep faith you say and pray
for if you seek you will find,
but does hope and chances have
limits for it seems we are unworthy for the kind,
As i stood still and watch
all hope turns its back on me,
left behind and deprived for what i
have been seems to be the curse for me.


-i wrote this at 3 am in the morning, couldnt sleep..this was all that was in my head back then-